I need

I need...I need...I need...explode,,,no ..no..just breath ,as usual,waste your time,,as usual, the most important thing don't speak up ,don't disappoint me ,I need you to be intact, seal your mouth ,any way it's full of sores ,guess why ?

Starter

since when I say what is inside me, at least to strangers , I have always wished to write ,any thing , my story , it sound big ,do I have a story ,does any one care about my story ? do I even care about it ,most of the time I just keep saing to my self just breath ,just exist ,belive me it might be useful for others even if you fade up , but am not happy . I know the way to be happy ,I can see the light far away but pull my self back ,get farer and cry ,even some times I can't cry .