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I am .... first of all am not comfortable ,am so confused and stressed ,am trying to take a serious decision and am so worry ,will it be correct or wrong ,how I 'll live with consequences ,should I consider my family in this or just think about my self ,the main problem is that am not sure if my decision 'll be mainly depend on what I want ,any way I 'll try to hold on today and calm down and I'll see how I feel tomorrow,God help me please ,it's you who I want now more than any thing ,control my heart and my soul ,let them see and feel only what you want ,I am helpless without you and I don't want any help except from you .I believe in you and I love you.